Here I go.

Do I dare…

Do I dare open another avenue for people to falsify my words?

Why the hell not?

Preface

(( iCuss. Yes I do, not often, but I do. If it offends you- pay attention to my intent behind the word(s)- am I tearing down someone or something? {I certainly pray that day never comes} ))

But let me preface MY blog. These are MY thoughts, feelings and perspective of MY truth. It’s the life I lived- not you. Do I sound a little hostile? I think you would too if you had to live with your defenses up all your life- so here I am speaking up for everyone else who’s been dealt a hand of cards like me–or worse.

I’m sorry that I have to be so bold- but it’s not directed to all of you. It’s directed to the people who have somehow found the audacity to tell me what my reality is- to tell me what truth I can claim to have.  YOU have fueled my drive to be compassionate, to value all, to hear genuinely and love more. So truly- thank you. Thank you for picking me to be your punching bag- If it wasn’t me- it would have been someone who didn’t have the power to stand up- stand strong and fight back. I will always count that as a blessing; that you chose me.

Now that I have that out of the way…for now… back to the preface: this blog is going to be raw. There will be anger, terror, pain, joy, hope and love among many other real-life narratives.

Nothing will be silenced.

With that being said- I am a people pleas-er- I do not want to be insensitive to people’s feelings but I AM NOT editing and buffering the truth anymore.

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Adopted family, birth family and peers. This read may not be for you- however if you want to take the time to actually see my perspective on things- then by all means, welcome. And who knows- I may end up sending you a direct link so you can read “the words I tried to say”

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So why am I doing this- why am I being so bold, direct and vulnerable? Because I believe in a world where narrative fuels passion and passion fuels life and life is beautifully fueled by people. You see, I have a story that many of us have. I’m just sharing mine in hopes that it will offer hope, perspective and understanding to the someone out there. But ultimately this is a journal that will provoke much thought- if you allow it. See, I stink at small talk. I constantly analyze, challenge and dive into new thoughts-longing for bigger things to discuss-seeking someone to share in these conversations. Genuinely. I can’t give you a concrete reason why I’m writing-With each blog, the reason will vary. But I can tell you I will live a life caring for children who grew up like me and always encouraging for a brighter day.

I am a strong Christian *often failing Christian* who believes in radical love and redemption. I believe that Christ came to save people in a real world, who have real hurt, real pain and real anger. He came for those who are black, red, yellow and even white skinned. He came for Africa, Ireland, Nicaragua, Germany, Iraq and even America. He came for the rich, for the poor, for the artists, the musicians, mentally insane and even the sane. He came for you and even me. He came to love and to be loved. 

I have plenty to say and I hope that you will take the time to listen, well read. I can’t promise that my writing will be without error. Actually I can promise that you will find error, many typos and probably an embarrassing amount of grammar errors. I can’t promise that you will get anything out of my blog. I can’t promise that I will change your life or perspective.

But,

I promise that I will try my very best to challenge your perspective. I promise that I will be brutally honest. I promise to try to be funny and ultimately fail. I promise to not tell you what you want to hear. I promise to no longer hide behind what I want to be and just be me.

I hope that you can accept that. Because I’m tired of weeding out people who can’t handle the truth.

Well, there you have it, my heart is gradually opening- unprotected and out in the open. If any of the above sounds remotely interesting, hang on because this roller coaster is about to take off. I’d love for you to join me for the ride. Most importantly, thank you for taking the time to make it this far.

Sincerely

~A Genuine Destiny